This post is going to be me venting.
This past week, I have had an awful time with controlling my blood sugars....and I'm pretty sure it's all diet related. Actually, I know it is and it's the most frustrating thing ever.
All year, my friends and I have had "Teen Mom Night." I know. It sounds weird. For those of you that don't know, Teen Mom is a show on MTV. They document the struggles of four different Teen Moms. Well, every Tuesday at 10pm, we all get together to watch it. Someone always makes a fantastic snack. Most of these snacks are high fat, high carb....not too good for you. We've had: monkey bread, ice cream sundaes, popcorn loaded with butter and M&Ms, cheesy bread, chocolate chip cookies stuffed with double stuffed oreos.....
This used to be a once-a-week type of thing, which I was completely fine with. I was fine with extreme carb guessing, getting up at 3am to test my blood sugar and correcting. It's not just once a week anymore though. It's now more like 5 out of 7 nights of the week. I've been going to bed high, miss my 3am alarm every night, wake up high....then I'm usually fine for the rest of the day. It's not like my friends are forcing this food down my throat...but how the heck can someone resist eating it?!? It's so good! I think I'm going to have to figure out a way to resist the temptation and go back to indulging once a week. I don't want to lose that great A1c I had back in March! Ughhh! Sometimes I wish I could just eat like everyone else without the pain of carb counting, bolusing, and worrying about whether I covered it all or not.
It's exhausting. I'm overtired. I'm stressed from end-of-the-semester projects.
I just want summer to come......
This is a picture of the best cookie I have ever put into my mouth: an oreo stuffed chocolate chip cookie.