Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Junk Food Frustrations

This post is going to be me venting.

This past week, I have had an awful time with controlling my blood sugars....and I'm pretty sure it's all diet related. Actually, I know it is and it's the most frustrating thing ever.

All year, my friends and I have had "Teen Mom Night." I know. It sounds weird. For those of you that don't know, Teen Mom is a show on MTV. They document the struggles of four different Teen Moms. Well, every Tuesday at 10pm, we all get together to watch it. Someone always makes a fantastic snack. Most of these snacks are high fat, high carb....not too good for you. We've had: monkey bread, ice cream sundaes, popcorn loaded with butter and M&Ms, cheesy bread, chocolate chip cookies stuffed with double stuffed oreos.....
This used to be a once-a-week type of thing, which I was completely fine with. I was fine with extreme carb guessing, getting up at 3am to test my blood sugar and correcting. It's not just once a week anymore though. It's now more like 5 out of 7 nights of the week. I've been going to bed high, miss my 3am alarm every night, wake up high....then I'm usually fine for the rest of the day. It's not like my friends are forcing this food down my throat...but how the heck can someone resist eating it?!? It's so good! I think I'm going to have to figure out a way to resist the temptation and go back to indulging once a week. I don't want to lose that great A1c I had back in March! Ughhh! Sometimes I wish I could just eat like everyone else without the pain of carb counting, bolusing, and worrying about whether I covered it all or not.
It's exhausting. I'm overtired. I'm stressed from end-of-the-semester projects.
I just want summer to come......

This is a picture of the best cookie I have ever put into my mouth: an oreo stuffed chocolate chip cookie.


7 comments:

  1. This must be really frustrating for you. I wonder if there's a way for you to enjoy the snack but having smaller proportions. I have no idea what your diet is supposed to look like, but maybe there's a way you could eat a small amount of the snacks each time. Like eating just one cookie, or one handful of the buttery popcorn. Would that mess up your blood sugars, too?

    OR: Maybe you could bring healthy snacks with you, so when you want to stuff 5 of those (amazing looking) cookies in your mouth, you could just eat the snack you brought with you.

    I know both options would suck, but you'll figure it out. Generally, you're extremely healthy and you certainly know how to eat well, so don't let it frustrate you too much.

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  2. I just made a post and it disappeared! darn. I said we were shaking up our whole house because if its not good for my t1 then its not good for any of us. on another note, those cookies DO look good. dont be hard on yourself. managing D is hard work. cut yourself some slack then move on! xx.

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  3. Oh my word! That cookie looked crazy-yummy!

    This post makes me sad. I'm sorry that diabetes makes life harder. Sorry you have to go through that. Sorry that Matthew will face those same issues one day.

    But I think you have a good attitude. A once-a-week treat is good. That's normal.

    And if it turns into a twice-a-week thing...so be it.

    Just determine that you will check and correct if necessary. Make it a priority.

    Take care of yourself and that A1C no matter what!

    And promise me that you won't do this most nights out of the week. And not because of diabetes! I started having weight issues while I was in college and my battle still rages today.

    Focus on the fellowship of your friends. Not the food.

    It's not worth it! : )

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  4. I really like the idea of focusing on the fellowship of my friends instead of the food!

    I want to keep this type of food a treat...not an everyday indulgence. It really isn't worth it!

    Thanks for your comments!

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  5. yep, i find it pretty difficult to go round to other people's houses too.

    back in february i made a big change diet wise, and let everyone know that i was basically eating very few carbs - and people have been very supportive since then (if they sound funny i first suggest veggies with dips, or dark chocolate, and then if they don't sound convinced, i say i'll bring something for myself - and i try real hard to make it irresistible!) and my levels have been so good i don't mind being a bit of a pain...

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  6. Maybe try bringing health snacks for everyone to share! Make the night about friends and the show and not what you're eating. Sometimes it just feels good to chew, so either get some gum or carrots! But a treat once in a while is totally fine!

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  7. hope everythings ok with you !!

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